The Summer of Luv....the grand finale!

The wrap up.....Its suffice to say that this has been a summer of unforeseen events. I gave up being "cool" and here are the events that ensued.

First and foremost, I have consumed about 50 of these this summer. My stomach will probably never function normally again.Spent 3 weekends here and have honestly had my fill for the rest of my life. There is just something about the beach that no longer impresses me. It could be that i have officially gotten tired of drunk people. I can't stand being in crowded bars anymore...I spent ALOT of time here....



The Cologne of the Summer


Im sure you have seen me in one of these at some point....


And i am done....Look for me in the clouds because i wont be where i used to be.

Im not famous......just the people i mingle with are!

The Madness!



Late as usual.....or lazy....or busy....Anyway, here are the pics from the 212 event in NY about 2 weeks ago. My camera died on me but there were more people there than even i expected.

Here we have Spike Lee and Roger Federer

*Caption: My homey that i went with politely asked Spike if he would pose for a picture with him. Spike Lee's response "Not now i'm with my kid" Code for "I dont like white people.....especially not when they are going to take pictures with me and post it on the internet. I'm still waiting on my 40 acres and a mule....until i get it...no Pictures for you."


Serena Williams

Just Blaze



What my life is fueled on.....


The End.....this was the worst post ever...carry on

What if?

Eliminating even if only momentarily the idea of why; what are we left with? What if? Before the event or circumstance causes us to even question why, what if it never happened? The thought came to me at a moment when within my own mind I re-evaluated all the monumental and even not so monumental occasions in my brief existence thus far. This has the makings of being one of my most complicated and introspective entries thus far. I know for a fact that since I am not disclosing any portions of my past relationships that it may be of non interest to many but this is therapeutic for me lol. Okay I may give a slight insight into my world. Returning to my intent.....what if the day never came that I opened my mind, closed my eyes and embraced my thoughts? What if I was at all impressed with the superficial offerings of the world to the point where I had nothing to do other than exist, consume and regret? What if by chance I am blessed to fulfill my greatest potential even despite all my efforts to just be? What if we all are from the same planet and my eyes are so fixated on my own priorities that I fail to notice those who stand beside me in the same quest? What if I was not I, but merely a reflection of him and actually embraced the truth? What if for a whole day, a whole week or even the rest of my life did I not take credit for my being but gave all credit to God for creating me? What if every aspect of my being had its own agenda, purpose, plan and principle? What if I am not ingenious but just crazy? What if I stopped asking what if, would anyone notice or want me to continue?.....

So then i revisit my questions and provide my own answers. If the day never came and the dawn never rose, i know that my purpose in this world would go continually unfulfilled. I would not be in the position where my voice is being groomed to be heard forever. I learned that despite the audience, despite the pressure the integrity of my mind is the ultimate purpose of it all. As long as my creativity is.......distracted

The Premonition of Luv

I took a step back from my reality to see if the persona with which I have now devoted a large portion of my existence to was at all coherent. Simply put….Do I make sense to myself? During this introspective glance, I noticed that I only need to make sense of it all in my own head. I noticed that I have been apologetically sincere. That concept in and of itself seems to be the leading cause for issues with interpersonal interaction. I profess no desire to be a relationship expert, no desire to be a focal point of contribution for anyone’s existence or anything more than just a human being. Basically without including irrelevantly large words…..I just want to be. I want to say what I feel without sugar coating or beating around the bush.

So, the premonition came to me that we are all introspective of ourselves on varying levels. I am no different from anyone else other than the fact that I was made to be myself and that is it. I was not made to emulate my favorite rapper, my favorite poet, my favorite hero or my favorite self-created falsified identity. I have spent so much of my existence internally struggling with the person I am and the person who I am perceived to be. I scribe this entry under no subliminal references, no intended readers, no desire to receive feedback beyond a comment here and there (come on I am human). As I stare off in the distance clearly trying to perfect my best rendition of artistic disenchantment with reality but a never ending desire to be anywhere but in the present pose, I realize that I again am utterly content. I should rephrase that. I am utterly happy. I know that the cliché statement has been made consistently that “you need to be happy alone, before anyone can make you happy.” Without co-signing that is incredibly true. So returning to my thought….I am happy with nothing, I am happy with no one, I am happy with myself. Now grant it, I always want to perfect the present, secure the future and reframe the past, but I am the man I am because of it. The individual, who is completely confident in his insecurities, is that person because of my past, present and future.

Picture it in the inverse of how it has always been presented. If everyone looks to the past with regrets, the present with discontentment and the future with bleakness. Why can’t I look the past with appreciation, the present with contentment and the future with excitement? I can because I no longer grant myself the detrimental pleasure of self doubt. I am officially removing the safety net. I am skydiving with no parachute so that there is only but one reality. There is no longer an option of whether or not I will land. The only option is whether I will jump. Who is to say that our eyes are always meant to be fixated on the ground? Why can’t we look to the clouds or off into the horizon as if there is nothing separating us from that destination other than our own self imposed hurdles? I could easily return to my Love obsession, but that is forthcoming. I am engrossed in a moment of personal discovery which may or may not have any relevance to anyone’s life but my own. I have experience my personal rejuvenation through artistic discovery and spiritual embrace.

Premonition Revisited:

I needed a rebirth of Luv. I noticed that I have always tried to better myself everyday. But, the realization came that I never started with the rebirth. I do not want to go back and alter anything. I am reconstructing my reality based on the experiences of my history with no fabrication only the realization that freedom is always a possibility. So my freedom and rebirth are synonymous. Any restraint is removed as soon as I reconstruct my reality. There are times when I am desirous or more so envious that I did not think the way I do. Those moments are indeed fleeting because when I close my eyes I am extremely happy that I have internal harmony because I am my own man. In the mindset of Love, Men and Women are fixated parts of the world. There should never be a fear or apprehension with those things which we can not change. We are both human. I have an entirely new outlook on the essence of this whole man/woman thing. In its basic form we balance each other. The only hurdle (which is not self imposed) is that we are very rarely on the same page. Walk with me.

Blog Makeover

My Blog is getting a "How to Look Good Naked" type makeover.....

Word to Watching 3 hours of Lifetime last night.......Boo Lovin is a Mo'Funka...

I am letting go.....the ground is softer than you know....I have the proof

I really have been attempting to complete this for sometime, so here is the finale. This is the end of the Journey to the beginning. I have arrived at the podium only to decline the medal and raise my fist in the air.
For those who have listened to me disclose portions of my life either by blog (the book is all but inevitable at this point), by phone, by text message, by instant message (AIM: Fall4ronluv- shameless plug lol) or in person, then you know I have been consumed with something beyond words. I have lived a life so disconnected from reality that when life should cause some form of reaction, I do nothing but accept what has been dealt and make the best of it. I want to thank you all for the journey but the destination must be reached alone. This is the last chapter that will be designated to the discovery of Luv. The process of self discovery has taken a longer time than expected but has been worth every minute. The journey has been worth the ups, the downs and the setbacks. The journey has been worth the awkward conversations, been worth the missed phone calls and worth the restless nights. I am not on the verge of any mental breakdown. I am not on the verge of any monumental life event. I am on the verge of experiencing life. Often times there are perpetuating ideas that life is supposed to be a continual challenge or that life is supposed to be interrupted by continual disappointment. That could not be any further from the truth. Life was meant to be a pleasure, life was meant to offer hurdles so that we can reach new plateaus. To avoid sounding like a blogging self help book. Life is meant to be lived and experienced as a new day every day. Disappointment must die with every day and anticipation must be born with every new breath. I guess I can work out the concept behind that idea in the future, but my main purpose for this entry is to eliminate the dwelling on the past. I have said my goodbye, I have given you my last thought and now the time I have dreaded the most is letting go. When we say goodbye, our mind has always been trained to say it for the moment but still hold on to the memory. We say goodbye with the intention of seeing again. With our last thought, we say what we have in our hearts and minds to that point. But, the thoughts don’t end. The thoughts return at 12:17 am. Hahaha.
So…..i have made it to the point where I am finally letting go. Please get out the cigars, champagne glasses and party hats the celebration shall ensue. I guess there is a part of me that is unsettled with this moment but I think the part of me that is overweighing this emotion is the promise of today, the promise of tomorrow firstly the promise of right now. I am here. In all my essence I am still here. I could have easily given in. But…..there is more to life than what we don’t have. The best part of life is what we have yet to achieve or attain. So before I get too carried away in my braggadocios vain, I have some unfinished business I need to let go of lol.
There were times when I would refuse to ever name names……but there can be no repercussions at this point. There can be no consequences with which I am not able to bear. I am no longer leaving subliminals.

To My First: I loved you for everything that you have meant to me. I loved you for the times you were there for me and I turned you away. I loved you for the fact that you only wanted to be my everything. I will always love you for you. I will always love you for that but I must let go.

To My Mind: I loved you for the fact that you are the source of the man I am today. I loved you because I love who I am at this point right now. I loved you because although you hurt me the most, I still loved you. I loved you because I hated you for not being what my first was to me. I loved you for teaching me what love was. I will always love you for that but I must let go.

To My Pillow Confessions: I loved you for the fact that you never knew about my past yet you still let me in to your heart. I loved you for the fact that to this day I know more about you than you have ever told me. I loved you for the fact that your eyes will always be fixed in my head. I loved you for the fact that I knew from the first day that I met you that I could never have you because the sacrifices that would need to be made would prove to be more than I could ever commit to or more than your heart could ever handle. I will always love you for that but I must let go.

To my Conversation: I loved you for the fact that you listened to me endlessly but always spoke when I needed to hear. I loved you for the fact that you were strong enough to tell me when you had enough. I loved you for the fact that you helped me see clearly what I wanted even though it wasn’t you. I will always love you for that but I must let go.

To my Ego: I loved you for the fact that you loved the idea of me. I loved you for the fact that all you wanted was me to be me. I loved you for the fact that when I was still in the midst of finding myself you wanted a man….you wanted more than I could give you. I loved you for the fact that I have never seen you again. But again I must let go.

To my Head: I loved you for the fact that you represented everything that I have cherished. I loved you for the fact that you were vulnerable but tried so hard to be strong. I loved you for the fact that you never gave me a chance. I loved you for the fact that I know about everything you have never told me. I loved you for the fact that I will never forget you despite all the headache you cause. But again I must let go.
I now see what It means to fade into obscurity, but my intention is to only visit momentarily so no letters or postcards will be received. Letting Go feels so good!

My 2nd post......same frame of mind

I guess creatively i am at a crossroad.....I am at the juncture in my personal life where i am holding on to my past life and still trying to progress towards my future. Its impossible. This has bred nothing more than a power struggle which is often times represented in my inability to be decisive. I want to hold on to every person who i have interacted with in the past. But, the reality is that my past has guided me to where i am today but it is only my guide to live for the future. I need to learn from my past. I need to learn from you, not use you. I admit i have used everything that you have given me. When i needed an ear to listen, i used you. When i needed a woman to embrace sexually, i used you. When i needed a person who would challenge me, i used you. I know it seems like i have gone through the longest break up in history. Well rightfully so. I am not breaking up with just you. I am leaving my past behind. I am leaving the parts of my personality which i am ashamed of in my past........distracted!

Luv revisited

The perpetual return to my thoughts often times causes a bigger hole than i had previously accepted as a part of my reality. In English....when i take 2 steps forward i in turn take 4 steps back. I am truly at home inside my head because i always realize there is a lesson to learn with every event in life. Many of you know that i am truly obsessed with the concept of love. I do believe it exists, I do believe it hurts, I do believe you know when you are in love and I in turn believe that our pride gets in the way. Now, precursor to the disclosure: I am by no means an emotional person, I am by no means a man who will let a woman walk all over him and I am by no means a relationship counselor. Reason being, you can take a look at my previous relationship(s) and you can see that I am in all actuality the biggest challenge to deal with. So here I am......Ironically the inspiration for today's monumental entry is beyond the normal influences in my life. This is not a result of a commercial, not the result of a chemically overloaded energy drink or a movie. This entry into the Luv Letters journal is based on life. My life. The life that very few people have encountered. I guess a sufficient backdrop would be to explain my life without any useless persona's, personalities and identities. I was raised by my mother and 2 older sisters, so naturally i am more comfortable around women. This upbringing made it easier for me to be around women and present the essence of a confident man. Many of the females i have encountered state clearly that they are attracted to the confidence in a man, not to be confused with cockiness. So once i learned how to holster my confidence that seems to be the demise of my relationship. I was in a very committed, trusting and healthy relationship for close to a year. Now, bear in mind i was young and really did not grasp the concept of being in a relationship. This was the point when i was convinced in my mind that i wanted to be that dude to as many women as possible. If i look back at it now and see what that title entails, it entails a man giving of himself to multiple women who will never hold him as anything more than a memory. If i think of every old mack, player, pimp or whatever.....he is old and alone. I made the commitment to myself that i no longer wanted to be that dude to a bunch of women. I simply want to be the man to my woman. For a man who has never had an issue with meeting women i guess it is easier said than done. I was with my ex for 5 years and in that time there have been situations that have been a consistent interruption in my discovery of luv. I will not disclose all those situations over a blog. But, i will say that the discovery of luv did not take place as i intended. I have no one to blame and thank but myself. I made friends with numerous women and was not a friend to the one woman i should have been. I fully expect every woman who i have ever encountered before today to move on to another man who will not cause their heart as much pain as i have in my short existence in their lives. I suppose the purpose for this entry as jumbled as it may be, is to create an open letter with closed thoughts. I am not different from any other person. I have skeletons in my closet. I have broken hearts and have had mine broken as well. That makes me no more or no less of a man. That makes me human. Yes.....i admit it RonLuv is a human being! I relish my reality as such. I wish you the best, I wish your wedding day is everything you imagined it to be and i wish that your growth is as a result of you and your life. I'm sitting back with a smile on my face and glancing over to check my phone because in the past my fear of being alone would cause me to stake claim. I have no hold on anyone's life from this point forward. I am letting you all go to embrace your realities. Meant in the most un-conceited way possible. As i look through the proverbial cloud that has been over my head for several months now, i can finally see the sunlight. I can finally breathe and the air smells eerily euphoric. GoodBye!

No Not another RIP Post....

Everybody knows the "Mac Man" died early this morning and rather than keeping the somber mood going...................Jing a Ling, Jing a Ling


Lets live it up for the original B Mac....

Im going thru my top 3 characters Bernie Mac has played in every movie you have probably seen but dont realize it....

1. Buster in Def Jam's How to Be a Player


2. Dollar Bill in Players Club


3. Pastor Clever in Friday.....Mrs. Parker let me pray with you.

Your eyes are not deceiving you......Shout Out to Soulja Boy

Its inevitable...its un-escapable....Soulja Boy is apart of Hip Hop forever. I'm not even mad. Put your Al Sharpton "We Demand Repirations" Soap Box away for just one minute and hear me out. He made everyone learn his dance without even trying. It wasnt like anyone held a pistol to our heads and made us do this shit in the over 21 yr old bars. We did this shit by choice. We chose to Crank That Yooooouuuuuuuuu.....We Chose to Supersoak that Hoeeeeeeeee.....I still have no idea what that means but that's besides the point. I think a large inspiration for this once in a lifetime shoutout to Soulja Boy from yours truly is because i am tired of "Hip Hop Heads"......u know the type....always stuck on the good ol days....We are no longer in the good ol days....The memories are great....But seriously who wants to go back to wearing cross colors????
I mean seriously word to Class Act with Kid and Play.....
People need to accept the reality of the situation....If you know the chorus to Crank That....you cant front like you didnt ride out in your car listening to this joint....Come on....i know i wasnt the only one Screaming Youuuuuuuuu while i was driving down 95....oh and to solidify my point....Google Soulja Boy....444,000 related topics....I googled myself and i realized...no one gives a damn about me lol.
Im not saying im a fan and will bump Soulja Boy forever.....or even when i get in my car.....but i tell you what....his line on Marco Polo....Killlllled Bow Wow's entire song and swag...."Your girls forehead was on my belly".....hahahahaha.....Damn....Word to Don King...Only in America!

I walked a mile in my own shoes

My Car died....RIP.......Gooooooooonies no more DD.
so i've been walking here and there since last night when my homeboy picked me up from my homegirls crib......i guess i was too cool to say "yo baby, yo baby, yo baby.....can i get a ride home?" hahaha....I never realized that walking makes you appreciate simple stuff more....cue product placement.

Every person should invest in these:




DONT EVER WALK IN THESE.....these feel worse than your girl telling you she found someone who treats her right...hahahaha




And next time i stop at Happy Harry's/Walgreens or whatever...Im copping one of these on my homeboy's discount hahaha






Luv Sounds of the Day 8/07
This is feel good music...put your cool away for the day!

• MTV
• Music Videos
• MTV Shows
• Entertainment News

This is officially my song of the day.....word to interracial baby's Halle Berry, Alicia Keys and almost every baby born in Delaware

10 redbulls in 2 days.......pray for me

I got a bit of an audience now....so this is my anti-famous blog.

(Cracks open a can of RedBull).....on the low i hear they are coming out with flavors in a little bit.
Insider information.....hopefully they make Pomegranate.

Aight here we go.....My past 48 hours in a nutshell...

10 minute trainer, RedBull, Reese Cup Cereal, Basketball with Nerd At The Cool Table, Vantage Point....dope flick, 9:30 am call from my home boy asking me if i wanted to get lunch.....yeah at 9:30am on my day off. Anyway....lunch at the China Man Buffet.....$7.00 for all you can eat yard bird, house rodent and Broccoli. I can never give up chinese food. Finally got in my order from Digital Gravel. Okay there was a huge sale they had on 4th of july weekend....and i just got that shit TODAY.....i think they shipped it on Horse Back.....DAMN...

I finally spoke to my ex-gf after a month of non communication and i said "I still want to be friends"......i didnt really mean that. Thats another blog i suppose....Then I went to this event on some VIP Shit (click pic to see the random ridiculousness......or word to my homegirl this is clearly Foolishness Personified


Honestly, Im really not a fan of them...but my opinion is irrelevant. Ill give you a rundown of the event with some crappy pics.
There were news cameras all over the place because apparently these are limited to 300 pairs or so worldwide.....(HaHaHaHaHa....Joker laugh.....I know something you dont know). There were about 50 cool kids out in front of the store waiting in line to get in and pay $250 for these joints.....um yeah ill pay my car payment instead. But there were another 50 cool kids across the street mad as hell because they couldnt get a pair. When i say cool kid i mean one of these type.....
Snug walnut smuggling jeans, irrelevant scarf and perfect camera pose......Im not an angry black man.....i just blog that way.
So im at this joint and there are some e-famous people, the dude from kixandthecity.com was there....um questlove and the chick from floetry was there....Secretly she
and I had a moment. She looked me in the eye and smiled but guess what your boy did?.......... I stonefaced her on accident because at that very moment i felt RedBull number 6 reeking havoc on my whole right side lol. I will meet her again and immediately try to make love to her mouth. Jokes and Jokes and Jokes.....Im sure there is going to be a really in depth review of the event...But not from me. I came, I saw, I got a RedBull and I left.....Here is what you have been waiting for...my crappy digital camera pics and also the funniest video on the web right now.

Throwback joint of the day........

Hate it or Love it........hands down the best CD whenever this came out...
I'm not one of those bloggers that swears to know everything about the album, the inspiration or the artwork....I know if its a dud or if it's hot.....
Very few throw away tracks on this CD....go get your copy throw it in and ride out...
Its prolly scratched, been used to roll a blunt on or left in your ex's cd player....Of course i got copies on stash...(Purchased at FYE of course) word to RIAA.....I'm scared of you motherfuckas......

The Summer of Luv.......through the eyes of D & G Glasses

Aight im blogging from my newest pickup.......my laptop that i got a super hook up on word to Master P.

Um.....let me get right real quick and throw on some motivation music.


Im not even going to speak on why i am listening to this but ride with me anyway.

So i finally touched down to the beach for the 2nd time all summer and i dont know what i have been doing otherwise.

Anyway this has been an interesting weekend that started on friday after work...(pause)...im bloggin in incomplete thoughts and im killing myself lol....focused

I got off work on friday with little intention on doing anything more than goin home and sleeping off my long week. Ironically as im leaving work another one of those pointless ass/sexual harassment breading grounds/make it uncomfortable at work on monday happy hours is going on underneath my building......So me being the social misfit that i am slide down to check out who is acting up/trying to get with the "cute chick from the other dept" and all that irrelevant corporate america BS that goes on....(Im really not an angry black man.....i just blog that way lol). So for people that don't know or don't pay attention to me, I dont drink alcohol so i have NO idea why i am always at an after work event, bar or wherever.....i think i just like to see how people are so uncomfortable around a sober person. Anyway.....i stepped in and ran into an estranged friend whom i havent spoken to in a while...after seeing how you can never have a serious conversation when alcohol is involved....word to Real World and all other reality TV. Without Blog Bitchin....we squashed our issue and im ready to move on....but that should have been an indication that this weekend would be awkward and random as hell....Shout out to Peanut.......off topic....Shawty Lo SUCKS....."How u laugh? HA HA HA HA" The Fuck??????
I "worked" all day saturday and rolled down to The Republican Convention aka Coon Capitol aka Dewey Beach...So i ran into my cousin who i only see at funerals and at the beach smh.....its crazy lol. I ran into a couple random people i have become cool with but have no idea what their names are.....its too late to ask em....i just dap up and keep it moving....oh by the way....shouts out the best photographer i know for hooking me up with the picture at the top of my blog....She will be famous once she realizes that she will have to do it by herself....see Rachel....
U ever see a thug in flip flops???

back to my recollection of events. Im at this Beach House with complete strangers and I'm determined to make these people have a screening process before they just let any random person join their house again lol. Im keeping it so anti coon.....Word to my man calling the mexican dude at the pizza shop (must be an east coast thing.....mexican cats make the best pizza)..."Papi", "Amigo" and "Chico" all to get a slice of cold pizza....he tossed it at him like it was table scraps....word to Hillary Clinton pullin the Race Card lol.....2 slices of pizza for $7.....how much is it if you let me eat the crust and handful of sausages and some cheese????....this was the funniest 1:06 am event i have experienced hahahaha.....


T-Pain aka i give up on the aka's is as annoying as a ninja with a xxxxxl tall polo from footlocker.

New Music.....
Back to it....
Basically my weekend was good....it felt good to breathe new air....and i have gotten rid of a bad habit, picked up another habit and learned to just live on Planet Luv.....

If you see me and want me to drink you can start by getting me either a water, a propel, a gatorade, diet green tea or a sugar free red bull......thats all i drink word to a corny ass liquid diet.
Just talked to my man DanK....this ninja is crazyyyyyyyy lol but thats my dude....I was telling him how the world has passed me by and i dont even attempt to catch up lol. I didn't know there was an earthquake until i visited The Hundreds website...

I stopped by the mall and checked up on my homeboy from Champs....i feel spoiled as hell cuz i wont buy any sneakers unless i get em on a discount....


New Max B (Click the pic)
I gotta go visit the China Man......$5.00 some wings, fries and change to spair